Small Talks

I never had the guts to tell him anything. We were in the same group of friends, the same class, the same major... which means I was always with him. I had all the time in the world to tell him. There would be times that our friends would leave us alone but nothing really happens during those times. He seldom talks so I would have to start the conversation. Actually, I would have to keep the conversation alive. But every time I try to, we only end up arguing about something I said. Either he contradicts it or avoids it... it doesn't matter.

There would be times that I would think that he's contradicting me because he wants to end the conversation. It's like he doesn't want to establish anything with me. We've been together for about 6 months but I still couldn't say that we're friends. We're always hanging out together but we don't talk. He sleeps, I draw... Silence. Once we arrive at the tree, he covers his face with his cap and drifts off to dreamland. We don't even talk on our way to the tree. (Well, we talk. But it's somewhat of a "What's the homework for Literature?"/"Will there be classes on the 19th?" talk. Small talks don't count because you don't really find out anything new about the person you're talking to.)

This relationship that we have is really bothering me.

No wait...

It's REALLY bothering me.